Apocalypse Nigh

As June 25th draws ever closer, the question in the air lingers: What will happen to Blaspheme Baxton? There are two possibilities – return to inworld as my former self, or vanish forever from the so-called perfect world. I haven’t decided what exactly, but I am weighing my options.

Option 1: Continue life as Blaspheme, but quit DJing. Let’s face it, that’s been weighing me down. Even though I’ve integrated nicely into Vicious Cycle, I’m still very much the odd person out. As for Minx and Apocalypse Nigh, I never got around to actually working the crowd. Music is where my heart is, but really, I’m tired of just signing on just so I can spin some tunes for two hours, humoring bad requests from people whose only knowledge of a Rammstein song is “Du Hast.” It’s just not for me.

Option 2: Quit SL completely and not allow any of you – with the exception of a selective few – into my circle. While I love the adventures we have inworld, I’m so tired of all the drama. Sure SL’s no different from RL when it comes to drama, but SL drama, to me, is pointless.

Option 3: Quit DJing and drop Blaspheme out of my list. Return as the original and hide in the crowd, making new friends, disowning those who have pissed me off, those who have never liked Blas and those who just plain annoy me.

What have I decided? Well, come May, I might just be quitting Vicious Cycle, Apocalypse Nigh and Minx with one last show respectively. I will thank you all for the experiences and I will mean it. Come June, I’m gonna start vanishing even more so than before, with the possibility of completely vanishing. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll make a cameo every now and then, but that’s about it.

So why am I doing this? It’s simple. I made a promise to myself that a year and only a year will be spent as Blaspheme Baxton and then I’d wind up with back as my original avatar, if at all. Also, I don’t like the truth being withheld for me. I don’t care because for a lot of you, I haven’t been completely honest with you – remember that time I told you it was a good idea? Well, I lied – so you all don’t have an obligation to be honest with me – like that time when you said I looked good, but really that assemble looked like shit on me.

Either way, see you all in May.

Hung out at Minx last night, again. I had no intention in doing so, but Laita called in the staff to sign up for the clock. Two events per week. It’s settled. Trifecta will equal as follows:

Monday: Vicious Cycle 3-5
Tuesday: Apocalypse or Minx
Wednesday: Apocalypse or Minx
Thursday: Vicious Cycle 3-5
Saturday: Apocalypse or Minx
Sunday: Apocalypse or Minx

As you can see, I haven’t decided my schedule yet. I suppose that will discussed at a later day.

While Twitch & I share an intimate moment, Kuju fiddles with himself

Anyway, I rezzed the couches out at Minx so we can have a place to sit while we talked about the big stuff. In the last few weeks, Twitch and I have grown close, almost as if she’s an extension of my SL self. She says I have this thing about making her feel better when all things are going to shit. I suppose that “talent” of mine has a way of crossing over into the virtual world, even though have the time my ability to make someone else feel better in the long run tends to hurt someone else.

Kuju joined us and later Laita returned. We had some fun, talked some more as I streamed some sappy and weird songs. After everyone was gone, Twitch and I decided it was time to hit the hay.

When I got up, I decided to get on to get some things. I found out, however, I didn’t know what I wanted to get done. I hung out with daisy for a bit and then Twitch came over. I some of my furniture in Twitch’s house so we can have somewhere to sit. I suppose the two of us can go shopping fore more later. Twitch took me to a store and then gave me some lindens to buy something. The moment I saw it, I felt sorta nostalgic. She took me to the store that Kiara got her donuts, the same donuts I loved at Mint. During the time I took Twitch over, I told her how much I loved them. I also noted how it was probably going to close due to Kiara’s absence and possibly leaving Second Life. And now I have one, which is copyable. That makes me happy.

I guess I’ll talk about more later. We’ll see.