I hate myself for loving you



Whatever Happened to Blaspheme Baxton?

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After a failed “spin-off” Blaspheme Baxton strolled back into the in world. The world is much changed since the last time she saw it, but nevertheless, her friends still remain. Since her return, she’s been bouncing between Bloodbath and Vicious Cycle. She’s in love with the latter club’s new design and building.

Still, she can’t help but to feel like the whore at the prom. Things have changed, a lot. And it’s going to take some getting used to, but surely she’ll bounce back.

The question has arisen a few times, however: Will Blaspheme return to Djing? Possibly, or possibly not. Maybe her time has set beneath the horizon, but she has an idea or two up her sleeve.

Playlist work

The following artists/bands have been placed on my “last” playlist:

Lady Gaga
David Bowie
Within Temptation
Nine Inch Nails
Adam & The Ants

Obviously by suggesting this is my “last” playlist, I mean, for a while on Second Life. I’m sure I’ll pop in and out, contact old buddies and DJ once in a while. Who knows. We’ll see.


I’ve been speaking to Twitch on MSN for the last few weeks, plotting my last spin event. Last spin? Really? Is Blaspheme Baxton really leaving SL? Really? Really really?

To fool around, play some awesome tunes, sure. To continue on with the gig of falling in line, probably not.

Twitch will be hosting me at her place, Bloodbath. I invite you all to join. August 1st (today) @ 3PM. Come one, come all.

Just IM me if you need to hop on the TP train.

2 important deaths, and 1 cartoon death

It’s a bummer day. Michael Jackson and Farrah. Is it too early to make the joke: Will MJ be doing the Thriller dance any time soon? I hope not.

Today is rez day. It’s rez day and I was supposed to come up with this elaborate plan to out myself. Now, I’m not in the mood.

So I’ll give it to you straight: I’m a guy. I’ve always been a guy and will always be a guy. I’m not gay and I don’t have gender identification crisis, as some of you tend to believe when it comes to this.

The original purpose aside, I had fun being Blaspheme. I had fun knowing you all through her. I started off with lies, but then that got too boring so I started to tell the truth. Only, I left what organ I have between my legs out of stories.

Portia was the only one who knew first. That was followed by Phoenix, who couldn’t keep his nose out of it after a certain someone was outed. This caused me to keep a tighter security on my sex in real life.

I attempted to keep the list short: Kiara, iole, Wit, Judas, Kain, Twitch, and Laita. They all accepted it and didn’t care, which is why I told them. Some of you have become to see me as your sister, or your compatriot and I tell you, I’m still very much the person you met online. I’m just not a chick.

I started off as portraying Blas a straight girl, but after several advances by male avatars for sex, I dropped that act and went lesbian for my own peace. I, however, never had any intention to score me a lesbian, like other men have done. It was simply a game.

Sure, most of the time, I was rping and that grew too hard. I’d still do it, but I was often lax about it. I’d flirt with several people, but it was all a part of the rping. Blaspheme’s character had grown way out of my control, like most of my characters have in the past.

So with that, ladies and gentlemen of Second Life, I bid you g’nite. And I’ll see you on the flip side.

Pivot! Pivot!

Two more days, I have noticed. And I suppose the demon in my wants to alienate more people before I go. None of it matters, though.

I have created a new avatar in hopes of keeping up with another “project.” I might create another blog for the character, perhaps on Tumblr or Blogger. S/he already has a name, obviously, but I haven’t decided what route to go with the avatar. I might just have it around for the mean time until I completely shell out a back story, personality and style. And I’m not releasing the name here because it might tamper with the goal.

But who knows. I might not use it anyway. It’s just a maybe. It’s just a suggestion.

For those of you who are friends with the original and Blaspheme, I don’t think I’m going to let you join in on the reindeer games with this new one. Sadly, that includes Portia because I want to keep this as small as possible and make new friends. In fact, I already made a new friend, but she was quickly deleted upon accepting and then muted. She asked for 2K…I was not even a few hours old and already I was hit up for lindens. What the fuck? Seriously, what the fuck?

Your Highness of Vanishing

I’ve left a lot of broken promises in SL. I never ever return when I say I will. This is due to two reasons of late:

  1. Complete and utter apathy
  2. My computer’s being the spaz king

I need to upgrade, update and clean out a lot of crap. Anyway. This coming Thursday is Rez-day even though I don’t think I’ll be doing anything for it. After the “closing” of VC, I dropped the group. I was annoyed with the constant mood swings and drama that arose what seemed like bi-weekly, but I’m sure it was further apart than that. When I learned it was reopening and that the closing was only again to revamp the place – which I’ve been told from sources is way too laggy and way too gold (I don’t know, I don’t have a lm or anything and I’m not gonna go to a place that might make my spaz king computer decided to quit on me completely).

VC is out of the question if I do hold an event for rez day. Anyway, I think I should’ve made a bigger deal, but I opted to leave quietly after the closing of VC spoiled my last spin gig. It doesn’t matter.

In other news, keeping up with my promising of a sequel/spin off of my RPing as Blaspheme Baxton, I started working on an idea on a new avatar, which some schmuck over at Sims 3 beat me to. It’s okay. I have more ideas I want to work on as creating characters and personalities is what I do. I’ll make more notes and we’ll see what happens.

I’m sorry to say, however, Blas isn’t going to be a part of it anymore. Her personality pretty much dies soon enough. I had a nice run as Blaspheme Baxton, but I need to give her a rest. She’s moving to Tokyo to escape all of those who persecuted her and taunted her – you know who you are. She may come back, but I imagine a girl like Blas will OD after a late night party, dying on the curb while onlookers wonder if she’s just pulling one of her stunts.

The story has to end, ladies and gentlemen. My story has ended.

Edit: I went to VC to check it out. Laggy, yes. But that can be due to the fact my computer’s a spaz king. I like the set up outside, not fond of the building. I suppose, I left before it truly gave me a headache. The last set up was quite disappointing. This one looks half decent, but still, not a place I would like to be at. Mint was the only place where I truly felt comfortable being odd one out.

Also, I didn’t finish that thought about Rez-day. I could do it at Twitch’s place, but I don’t know. The feel there doesn’t even go with me. I think I’ve turned Blas into my rl self and I have completely alienated everyone who mattered to me, so I can easily turn away from them. It’s depressing. No one I plan to kill her off with an overdose. It’s what we both deserve.